{003} Romanian Wind
Jul. 4th, 2013 01:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fangirlextraordinaire Welcome to the real world. It sucks. You're gonna love it.
I couldn't get rid of the angst today. I felt freaked out all day long. It just kept getting worse. Better now. Stoned off my ass. I really love that I'm having enough lately to at least smoke a bowl before bed and manage to get some sleep. Resting for more than a couple of hours at a time is nice. It's not even 1:30 yet and I'm already getting set up for bed. So far, I'm doing the journalling every night right before I go to sleep and hoping that helps relax me even more. I'm not sure whether or not it's working yet. The past couple of entries have been so short. This one isn't much longer but I'm actually trying to put some effort in.
I've just been feeling the illnesses so much lately that it's getting to me. I'm ready to have an up time again. This has been going on for too long. I just can't seem to get it together. I'll think I'm making progress and then it's ten steps backwards again. Like this morning - I'd gotten plenty of sleep and still didn't manage to make myself get out of bed until 3 hours after the clock went off. That can't keep happening.
I couldn't get rid of the angst today. I felt freaked out all day long. It just kept getting worse. Better now. Stoned off my ass. I really love that I'm having enough lately to at least smoke a bowl before bed and manage to get some sleep. Resting for more than a couple of hours at a time is nice. It's not even 1:30 yet and I'm already getting set up for bed. So far, I'm doing the journalling every night right before I go to sleep and hoping that helps relax me even more. I'm not sure whether or not it's working yet. The past couple of entries have been so short. This one isn't much longer but I'm actually trying to put some effort in.
I've just been feeling the illnesses so much lately that it's getting to me. I'm ready to have an up time again. This has been going on for too long. I just can't seem to get it together. I'll think I'm making progress and then it's ten steps backwards again. Like this morning - I'd gotten plenty of sleep and still didn't manage to make myself get out of bed until 3 hours after the clock went off. That can't keep happening.
